Friday, October 31, 2008

My biggest fear?

From my Multiply:

I've seen both sides of the coin.

And I've forgotten what it was like to lose someone that was your everything.

This is a selfish sentiment more than ever:
But I can't possibly imagine growing without Paddy.
I don't wanna break up with him.


I've seen happy people break up.
It effing sucks.

[ Dear God:
Please let me be as stubborn as ever 200 million years from now and onto eternity.
(this is how long i plan to stick with Paddy).

Please don't let me lose the one I love like shake, shake fries.

Please remember that he loves me like seashells and goldfish.

I'm sorry I made him cry.
I'm sorry I don't seem to take care of him.

I promise to be better.

Please don't let us break up.



Yeah. I'm pretty paranoid. I know. But it's happened to the best of us. And I don't want it to

happen to me. EVER. I'm perfectly happy. Very happy. Please God. Please.

Thursday, October 30, 2008


I just Googled my secret crush's (ex?) girlfriend.
I was so happy with what I found.
It's craazy boy. Whooot.
I've been ringing up Paddy to call me so I can make kwento.
He's my super best friend. ONLY HE KNOWS WHO MY CRUSH IS. Hahaha..
Baby, CALL ME!
I have chika. :))

Let's play a game.

I have a secret. And only Paddy knows. I have a crush on my idol. Aaaaaaand it's NOT Paddy, mind you. Who's that guy??? :)) *sigh Paddy approves, btw.

[Note: USELESS POST. but I can't post this on multiply. 'stoo secret. haha]


I'm watching McCain on David Letterman. I really am pretty clueless on this. I just know that I'd probably get along with Obama. Maybe. I guess I should know better than to meddle with things such as American politics. I get too involved I guess. Right now, tabs on my browser are those of McCain and Obama websites and Facebook (Obama) accounts. I need to talk to someone, fast. Somebody to clear this up for me. I get swayed a lot when people I admire don't support the same advocacies as I do. I mean, I admire these people because I think they're smart, opinionated individuals. Then I find out they have pretty good arguments that contradict my own. Then I begin to doubt myself. So it gets pretty crazy. I have issues. These are my formative years, people! Do you know where I can get a political debate sparring partner?

Monday, October 27, 2008

Screw you, paige.

I give up. Stupid girl. No opinions this day forward.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

makes sense.

Why I like watching Grey's Anatomy.

Yes. Horrible things DO happen. Happiness in the face of all of that? That's not the goal. Feeling the horrible and knowing that you’re not gonna die from those feelings...that’s the point.
-Dr. Wyatt

There’s a little animal in all of us and maybe that’s something to celebrate. Our animal instinct is what makes us seek comfort, warmth, a pack to run with. We may feel caged, we may feel trapped, but still as humans we can find ways to feel free. We are each other’s keepers, we are the guardians of our own humanity and even though there’s a beast inside all of us, what sets us apart from the animals is that we can think, feel, dream and love. And against all odds, against all instinct, we evolve.

Deep down, everyone wants to believe they can be hardcore. But being hardcore isn't just about being tough - it's about acceptance. Sometimes you have to give yourself permission to not be hardcore for once. You don't have to be tough every minute of every day. It's okay to let down your guard. In fact, there are moments when it's the best thing you can possibly do - as long as you choose your moments wisely.

Some days the whole world seems upside down. And then some how, and probably, and when you least expect it, the world rights itself again.

The contest is a lions' fight. So chin up, put your shoulders back, walk proud, strut a little. Don't lick your wounds, celebrate them. The scars you bear are the signs of a competitor. You were in a lions' fight, Stevens. Just because you didn't win doesn't mean you don't know how to roar.

It's good to be scared. It means you still have something to lose.

Forgive and forget. That's what they say. It's good advice, but it's not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness old scores never settle. Old wounds never heal, and the most we can hope for is that someday we'll be lucky enough to forget.

sifting through the dead

has got to be the most hilarious activity. Really. So you ask me why. tsk. Blindness is.


Wednesday, October 22, 2008

here we go

Reservations. I'm not one to be known for reservations. But this time I have a great excuse. I don't want to take a dive in the shark tank again. EVER. I absolutely hate the BS that comes with it. And I'm perfectly happy with what I have so far. Really. So can I say I've moved past that? I'm not so sure. Okay? And I hate coming up with regrets. Some are not exactly my best people. They have this brilliant tendency of bringing out the worst in me. And most importantly, themselves. You, people.

Monday, October 20, 2008


I'm waiting for my boyfriend to call. Buuuut...

Okay. I admit. side from Brangelina, I believe they are the only other couple worthy of being labeled as Hollywood royalty. Those pants are sexy. Verrry sexy. And that mancandy Papa D's lookin' fiiine.

*sigh. I wanna be Victoria B. Whoooot.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Dear hearts

I hate flitting from one blog to the next and then saying one thing then another on the next. I really, seriously need a blog that won't just cover what Im currently fascinated with as of the moment. I'm too lazy to actually start up a new blog. So i guess it has to be this one instead.

But I'm still lazy.

So yeah.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

baby likes reading (people)

I seriously should be studying math. But it's free internet day. And this is probably the last time I could avail of it. Soo yeah. Anywho...


Finals are tomorrow. And I still can't do operations on algebraic expressions.

I need one final D-spree with my ECOWS. Xao graduates this sem. Which reminds me, we'll probably be displaced people with no tambayan. And I still need to get the pics and videos form his lappytop.

My flight home's on the 19th. I can't, can't wait.
Oh, effers. I need to pack.

I have sexygorgeous, still unpaid, ankle boots that did NOT cost me a fortune.
I need new tights and leggings stat.

I got the new 17. Heart Evangelista is still seriously confusing and eyebrow-raising.
Reading her interviews made go "What the..?!??!".

FOLIO!!!!!!!!! AAAGH.
Me likes playing with my swatches though.

Highlight of my week: YVETTE"S DEBUT.
So much fun.
Everyone was guzzling tonic water and gin, brandy, red wine, and that tough drink (vodka?) for her 18 shots.
CT blockmates were part of the 18 shots!!!!!!
[Drink. Make a face.]
Met cool, new people. [Pauline! Transfer to UP na.].
I taught my blockmates the spoon trick. Spoon trick's rad fun.

Grin quotes from the party:
Yvette is like a balloon, 'cuz she's fly.-random funny dude
If Yvette was a fruit, she'd be a cherry, 'cuz it's my favorite. -Olly

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

hello, handsome.

Robert Pattinson/Edward Cullen reminds me a teensy bit of James Dean. *sigh

UPTC, who? Judo, who?

Thank you Dominique, for reminding me that these demi-gods exist. I'm gonna go and swoon now.

*p.s. baby, you're still the sexiest of them all. ;)

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Walking in the sun.

The Batangas field trip was fun,fun,fun.
I keep the intimate stuff here.
And the notso intimate ones there ----> [Click Here]

the happiest people on earth.

that's not my jacket.
and after the best weekend of my life
i never saw him again.
where are you jes?